My Soul-Being

Hello,

It’s been 10 days since my e-decluttering and to be honest, there were really times when I wanted to get back on Instagram to check out images. I am very visual – meaning I love looking at scenic images that people take when traveling in addition to showcasing my interest in photography and so, how funny it may seem.. Instagram was the hardest to let go. Then I realized, experiencing the world with my own eyes feels more real and I needed more of that. My soul seeks for it.

My life is not the most perfect as some people may think as I’m always joyous and smiling. I have a wonderful family, that’s for sure. My internal compass has not been the best and I have not been kindest to my heart and soul. I am highly sensitive to energies and did not realize that until a friend of mine pointed it out. I see people not as what they look or the wall they build, I seep through all that and see their souls, which can be hard when the world is getting darker and darker.

I had the opportunity to watch the PRIDE parade today since it’s really close to my place and I almost cried because if people can come together in that event, how can people not meet halfway on all days. Now, I’m not saying that people should never have conflicts because that is just impossible. What we need is more respect and kindness among one another.

I had a person ask me, “Why are you so nice?” Actually looking back, it was probably more than just one person. Despite the repetitive questions, I still keep being taken aback because for me, it’s innate. Instead of saying, “Oh, how come? Nah.” I have learned to respond by asking them in return, “Well, why not?” Let’s all work together to let humankind.. be kind and to get the impression that we are naturally good people no matter our history or experiences in life. It is definitely easier said than done but if you are not hurting anyone (and please, that includes yourself) – what will you lose in being kind. It is a hard life to live with kindness but the heart and soul will be happy.

Looking outside, I have practiced the art but I forgot to have self-compassion so now, I’ll promise to take care of my soul too.

Same goes for you, ok?

6 months of e-decluttering

Starting today, I will be on a personal project to remove my presence in all personal social media platforms – except for this as it is mainly for documenting my journey in understanding how it feels like to be detached from seeing the world in someone else’s lenses thus allowing me to be more mindful of my own environment and blessings I already have. The voices outside my head are getting louder and louder that I knew I had to do something to hear myself much clearly.

Every morning the first thing I do is shut off my alarm and then look at Instagram, mostly because I love images that either involve travelling or lifestyle. Irony is I knew that habit was not something I wanted to be included in my long-term lifestyle. It just does not bring the best out of me. Facebook is the same when I’m commuting or having lunch by myself. I used to love to people-watch and I still do, I just forget because I’m slowly embarking on the bandwagon or at least the norm of using my phone to “relax”.

It’s not healthy.. for me. I am learning something and definitely staying updated with current events in addition to the lives of my friends. When contemplating about it though, I have enough in front of me, in the present. I forget to look at what I have and simply take advantage of what’s of reach – my family, my books, and my city.

I’ll be doing regular reflections to see the progression of my perspectives. Hop on this chapter with me? 🙂

All the little things

It’s only been a few days that I’ve settled in the new place – now I’m back with family cause my dad wants us all to go for a road trip. I wonder where.. (yet to be decided)

Anyway, I just noticed the smaller things that matter when living by myself and it’s quite funny when I think about it because well, they’re just the details that I never noticed before. I guess it is mostly due to the fact that my mom got them all figured out for us so I did not have to solve the puzzle. Let me share you them little things:

  1. Toilet paper runs out QUICK.
  2. A sponge is a must have in the kitchen – this must be replaced every month, in my opinion! like seriously.
  3. Paper towels by the counter please.
  4. A rag to make sure the tables are dry & clean (applicable to both the washroom and kitchen counter)
  5. A MEAL PLAN IS A HUGE DEAL – unless you have no problems with $$$
  6. Bulk barn will be my next best friend, to add some taste to my future meal plan.
  7. Fridge space can be very limited so yeah, coordinate with your unit-mates.
  8. Moisture is my worst enemy cause well, they indicate slimy surfaces. (it’s not fun so turn on those vents & spray/scrub them away)

I heard most of these from my mom before but never really understood how important they were until recently – all thanks to moving out! I like the learning experience I get to have and well, it also allows me to appreciate my mom’s efforts to keep our space super squeaky clean.

I gave myself 10 days to indulge in what I got – time, food hubs, and space. It is also important to be mindful of every decision I make because there are consequences for each as well, whether that be unconsciously splurging on food or not having enough rest due to wanting to make the most of the city life. Starting March 1st, I will have had a somewhat-concrete plan on what the next few months would look like – better & healthier!

3 things I will focus on: Meal Plan, Fitness Routine, and Education Tools.

Talk soon! 🙂

3rd law of motion

It already surprises how one can change their minds so quickly but what blows my mind is how one’s perspective towards himself/herself, people around him/her, and the world can change in a heartbeat because of a sudden realization.

Life is easier done than said. How? The more experiences I accumulate, the deeper understanding and maturity I will possess. Failure is given; success is a milestone to celebrated but it is always not to get attached to it. {fame & power are tools to perform greater deeds and must never be the destination}

“No man is an island”

I have always believed that everything happens for a reason.. it’s true but its much simpler than what I thought. There were a lot of instances that this came to me but it was only a few days ago that it occurred to me: my action is a chain reaction of what can happen next to someone else’s life. We are given this freedom to choose but ensure that you have the purest intentions in doing what you’ve chosen in addition to committing to it 100% – unless it becomes unhealthy to you and the people around you.

I reflected to my own life and realized that most of the blessings and mishaps that happened to me was a domino effect – no blame games here. The reality is that it would be a hike. The idea of “the one” and the “normal” thing to do are illusions created, you and I can build our own experiences with the daily decisions that we make. You and I are true shapers of the world and the reason events happen are due to our actions – in accumulation. 

pure intentions + ultimate commitment = ? destination
personal stories = experiences with events and people

I believe in the greater Being and my knowledge relies on It providing every human being to decide while being given the notion of the consciousness. As I have silenced the negativity and noise around me, the more I heard my own voice – listen carefully. However, also open some light into other people’s perspectives, it can be a lifetime lesson. Hear them out but know how to question. Stay curious. 🙂

C’est la vie, mes ami/es!